Experimenting with Motivation

I have been feeling unmotivated lately. I have tried various things to renew to vigor I approached my high school assignments with. I have gotten to the point where I am completing assignments moments before they are due, and I realized this has to change. I am tired of mediocre assignments, because I know I am capable of so much more. In high school, I was always striving to be the best. My best work came out in projects, and when I turned them in, I reveled in the annoyance the other kids felt towards me because I had gone beyond the requirements of the assignment. While everyone else had neon poster boards full of cutouts and handwritten descriptions, I had a professional looking, printed Adobe poster. My teachers admired me, and that was all that mattered.

Now, it seems I just don't care anymore. Sure, it would be nice to be at the top of my class, but that would require work. I'd rather just laze around and do nothing. I've been struggling with this for the last few weeks especially.

So, I made a deal with myself. I will work hard every day to complete my work and do it well up until Thanksgiving break. I will give myself the weekends off as long as everything is done during the week. I will put a great effort into keeping my room clean. I will do all of this, and see how I feel over Thanksgiving break. If I have not seen a huge change in my outlook, the quality of my assignments, and my grades, I will say the experiment has failed and will go back to my old ways. I am certain that if I complete these requirements I am putting upon myself, I will not want to go back to the lazy, sloppy person that I am now, though.

I am posting this so that I have accountability. You all have read this now, so there's no turning back. I will work hard until Thanksgiving and then decide where to go from there. The experiment starts now!